And so it ends, 2013. The older I get, the faster each year seems to fly by while I desperately grasp at literal time and beg for each moment to last longer. The feeling of each year going by quicker and quicker is increasingly giving me the anxious feeling that there truly are not enough moments in a day; in a month; in a year; to accomplish everything that you set out to do.
What I'm meaning to say is: I wish I had done more with my year, but who doesn't? It's an inevitable feeling that I think most people sink into as a year comes to a close. However, the more I grow up the more I'm getting to know myself; I am hard on myself. I set expectations that are always too high. If you are like me, then it will be inevitable that you will be feeling a sense of failure or lack of accomplishment at the end of the year. But do not be defeated!
I started to really think about this past year, the things I've done and the areas of my life that have improved: I moved into a better apartment; I'm making a little more money; I've learned more about the technology of digital marketing; and I've been loved, and loved, more than I ever have before. When it comes down to it, I know that I am bettering my life year-over-year, but because I am still not where I want to be I feel defeated though I have not failed.
In 2014 I want to realistic about the goals I set out for myself; drastic change and success is never found overnight, and I have finally come to accept and understand that. I think unrealistic goals are daunting, and it is the poison that makes people feel like giving up, which in turn creates laziness. I want to overcome that. I'm ready to escape that poisonous cycle and join the happy club. HUZZAH!
HAVE A SAFE AND HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE CELEBRATION TONIGHT!!